My subconscious
Some days I feel good; some days I feel tired. Most of these days, I feel sad, and it's like an undercurrent of emotions which I don't even understand. I wish I could understand my subconscious, which affects me without me even knowing it. Once, a friend told me that I tended to become hyperfixated on things which frustrated me, or things I did not understand. The notion that my subconscious operated out of my reach is one of the reasons I wish to know how it works. Maybe someday, I will be able to grasp the edges of understanding, but when will that day come? Or is my mind preoccupied by other concerns? If so, what? It's funny how I never think purposely about my subconscious, but everything I do think about intently ends up back at the same origin. I guess it's just another reminder of the cycle everything seems to go through. So, what is this desire to break away from the patterns I am used to? Is change good? It frustrates me to know that I do not, in fact, know. One might laugh.