网人

The World You Would Never Love Again

For a while I walked
In my black socks, silently
Footsteps whispering across the carpet,
never too noticeable a presence.

Glass shatters
and shards fly everywhere,
its chaos akin to the hollow shell residing in me
This is the world you once told me you loved so dearly.

As the soft light of the evening bathed down on us
and the old fishermen left the shores with their catch
You sat next to me on the sand
and told me your story.

You spoke like someone who had already left
but was polite enough to stay until the light was gone.

You, who laughed with me,
cried with me,
spilled dreams across the tide
Were you ever really there?

You who taught me how it was to survive
to love
and to hate.
And never said farewell before you left forever.

I never thought every day might have been the last day I would ever see you again.
Before you leaped into the ocean
and its mouth swallowed you up
Before I knew the pains you kept even from me.

I walked silently for a while
where the air still held the faint impression of your last breath,
wondering what it was that had killed you inside
And I found myself at the beach once more.

I sat down, alone this time
without you next to me
And stared hard
at the ocean that had stolen you from me

Only after you were swallowed up by the ocean did I realize
you were never truly in this world.